Nov '24

objects in the mind are smaller than they appear

Why is it so damn hard to pick things back up once i've left them for a while? Falling out of a habit makes things so daunting.

It feels as though I'm in a little boat slowly drifting away from a mountain, and as I drift the mountain grows and I drift and I drift and I'm paralysed simply by the thought of approaching this mountain.

Things in my head always seem bigger than their true size. And perhaps, now in this moment, I am realising how that is exactly the problem. Not doing the thing while slowly drifting away is not really me drifting away, it is my passiveness towards that thing, the overthinking, the lack of movement and action that is making the thing grow. It grows and it grows in my head. But when I reach out in front of me to pick it up again, physically with my hands, once i start doing it again - suddenly it shrinks - it fits in the palm of my hand, it even fits in my pocket. I realise the mountain is simply a rock and the whole scene was an illusion.

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(i always think: ugh i don't want to clear the dishwasher: but then i do it: and it literally takes 5 minutes: which is really no time at all: like ripping off a band aid: i'm working on getting into the habit of doing things right away)

thinking about doing something is a trap, don't fall for it. just do it ;)

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some recommendations:

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I like this podcast Ten Percent Happier with Dan Harris, the episodes are a mix of interviews and guided meditations :)

​https://open.spotify.com/show/1CfW319UkBMVhCXfei8huv?si=c2d2d58e2cf04154​

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thank you and goodbye

with love

Zena-Rae