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the title alludes to something i wrote: “het leven is constant vergeten en herinneren wat er nou echt belangrijk is” (life is constantly forgetting and remembering again, what is truly important)

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reminder to self #12: excellence, observation and joy

reminder to self #12 March '25 I want to write something sappy about sunsets The magical thing about sunsets is : when you are witnessing a beautiful sunset, it has this magnetic pull that attracts all bystanders. It demands the attention of the people, and the people obey. Not simply because it is beautiful, I have a theory: there is a deeper level to the phenomenon. I have once realised it before and just now re-realised on the coast of Marocco. (Sometimes you have an idea but it needs some...

reminder to self #11 February '25 what to do when you have an evening to yourself practice juggling for five minutes (it’s still quite hard to do, so get annoyed at not being good at it and stop after three) put painters tape around the edges of the wall you want to paint so you can get started right away in the morning play the harmonica along to the music playing on your bluetooth speaker while blankly staring at the poster your sister gave you realise that you actually kind of understand...

reminder to self #10 December '24 What if being successful simply meant: to continue? ❊ click here to listen to an audiofile of reminder to self #10 I met a man who talked about how people say business and love don't go together, it's the opposite! he said, a business without love is nothing! From that moment I knew I liked him, who doesn't love a man who loves love? The other night I saw him again and we greeted each other and he asked how I was doing. Of course I said: good! as one does....

Nov '24 objects in the mind are smaller than they appear Why is it so damn hard to pick things back up once i've left them for a while? Falling out of a habit makes things so daunting. It feels as though I'm in a little boat slowly drifting away from a mountain, and as I drift the mountain grows and I drift and I drift and I'm paralysed simply by the thought of approaching this mountain. Things in my head always seem bigger than their true size. And perhaps, now in this moment, I am realising...

reminder to self #8 November '24 It's none of your business to know who you are ❊ The leaves are changing and it feels as though I’m seeing them change for the very first time in my life. In awe, I’ve stood looking at the trees in Rotterdam nearly every day for the past weeks. I keep pointing out the trees to the people around me and taking pictures that don’t do its subject justice. How is it possible for the twenty third autumn of my life to feel like the first? The emerald, golden, ruby...

reminder to self #7 Sept '24 something about frustration, to-do lists and mirrors My never ending to-do list is really bothering me today, yesterday and also the day before yesterday but slightly less so then. You see, the frustration is growing (as is the list) because for every task I do three more pop up and the worst part of it is that it is all self induced torture, because I am the only person demanding myself to do these things. At the top of my list always is this newsletter… ‘Always’...

reminder to self #6 May '24 you're doing amazing sweetie good day! as we speak (or read and write and also probably not as you read cause you are not reading as i write… anyways) i am tying the last ends of my graduation project together, wowza! today i want to share with you an excerpt from my thesis (woohoo!) “having a dead mom always felt a bit like having some strange secret. i know you don’t know but i don’t know how to tell you. when is the right moment? a cloud loomed above me. it...

reminder to self #5 May '24 i have nothing to say that was a lie. it’s not that i have nothing to say. perhaps i just feel less inclined to say it. i’m afraid this is an excuse for why i have not written or sent a newsletter in the month of april. to be completely honest: i just didn’t feel like doing it and i don’t feel like anyone cares, so if i don’t care to say anything and no one cares to hear it then why should i care to stress over it? hm. this has a very negative tone. it’s not that...

reminder to self #4 March '24 nothing is good for you today’s recommendation is nothing hope you enjoy it :-) Z 113 Cherry St #92768, Seattle, WA 98104-2205Unsubscribe · Preferences

reminder to self #3 March '24 you have time to read the newspaper and make the sudoku In dutch there is a saying: Geduld is een schone zaak. Which translates literally to "patience is a clean case", and means patience is a virtue. I find that in my ambition, which I prided myself in not too long ago, there lies a lot of naiveté and more importantly: haste. What’s the rush? Ambition can be so exhausting, why does everything have to happen over night? I feel like there is such a rush to get...