reminder to self #13 Sept '24 It’s like I can’t be attached to nothing these days :/ Let’s kiss under water, I say It won’t work. But I always see it in movies, I say Movie’s aren’t real. They’ve been lying to us for years. The End, they said. The End! But movies aren’t real and neither are those so-called "endings"Change is real. Change is the realest thing we’ll encounter in our lifetimes. But endings? Those little fuckers are illusions. Resistance to change does not prevent the change from...
about 1 month ago • 1 min read
reminder to self #12 March '25 I want to write something sappy about sunsets The magical thing about sunsets is : when you are witnessing a beautiful sunset, it has this magnetic pull that attracts all bystanders. It demands the attention of the people, and the people obey. Not simply because it is beautiful, I have a theory: there is a deeper level to the phenomenon. I have once realised it before and just now re-realised on the coast of Marocco. (Sometimes you have an idea but it needs some...
7 months ago • 1 min read
reminder to self #11 February '25 what to do when you have an evening to yourself practice juggling for five minutes (it’s still quite hard to do, so get annoyed at not being good at it and stop after three) put painters tape around the edges of the wall you want to paint so you can get started right away in the morning play the harmonica along to the music playing on your bluetooth speaker while blankly staring at the poster your sister gave you realise that you actually kind of understand...
9 months ago • 1 min read
reminder to self #10 December '24 What if being successful simply meant: to continue? ❊ click here to listen to an audiofile of reminder to self #10 I met a man who talked about how people say business and love don't go together, it's the opposite! he said, a business without love is nothing! From that moment I knew I liked him, who doesn't love a man who loves love? The other night I saw him again and we greeted each other and he asked how I was doing. Of course I said: good! as one does....
11 months ago • 1 min read
Nov '24 objects in the mind are smaller than they appear Why is it so damn hard to pick things back up once i've left them for a while? Falling out of a habit makes things so daunting. It feels as though I'm in a little boat slowly drifting away from a mountain, and as I drift the mountain grows and I drift and I drift and I'm paralysed simply by the thought of approaching this mountain. Things in my head always seem bigger than their true size. And perhaps, now in this moment, I am realising...
11 months ago • 1 min read
reminder to self #8 November '24 It's none of your business to know who you are ❊ The leaves are changing and it feels as though I’m seeing them change for the very first time in my life. In awe, I’ve stood looking at the trees in Rotterdam nearly every day for the past weeks. I keep pointing out the trees to the people around me and taking pictures that don’t do its subject justice. How is it possible for the twenty third autumn of my life to feel like the first? The emerald, golden, ruby...
12 months ago • 2 min read
reminder to self #7 Sept '24 something about frustration, to-do lists and mirrors My never ending to-do list is really bothering me today, yesterday and also the day before yesterday but slightly less so then. You see, the frustration is growing (as is the list) because for every task I do three more pop up and the worst part of it is that it is all self induced torture, because I am the only person demanding myself to do these things. At the top of my list always is this newsletter… ‘Always’...
about 1 year ago • 5 min read
reminder to self #6 May '24 you're doing amazing sweetie good day! as we speak (or read and write and also probably not as you read cause you are not reading as i write… anyways) i am tying the last ends of my graduation project together, wowza! today i want to share with you an excerpt from my thesis (woohoo!) “having a dead mom always felt a bit like having some strange secret. i know you don’t know but i don’t know how to tell you. when is the right moment? a cloud loomed above me. it...
over 1 year ago • 2 min read
reminder to self #5 May '24 i have nothing to say that was a lie. it’s not that i have nothing to say. perhaps i just feel less inclined to say it. i’m afraid this is an excuse for why i have not written or sent a newsletter in the month of april. to be completely honest: i just didn’t feel like doing it and i don’t feel like anyone cares, so if i don’t care to say anything and no one cares to hear it then why should i care to stress over it? hm. this has a very negative tone. it’s not that...
over 1 year ago • 1 min read